Right now, all I can think about is, “I know what I want to do with my life, but I can’t start my dream right now.” If anyone else has had this thought or feeling you know what I’m talking about. It’s like this blockage in your heart. You want to get out and go chase your dreams but your dream is stuck inside of you and you just want to pull it out to making it a reality.

    I know what I want to do with my life. Photography/Graphic design. I’ve dabbled in it my whole life: spending hours on photoshop, taking pictures, being the editor of my high school yearbook, and every time when I look at something the first thing that runs through my mind is “How awesome would this look as a photograph.” I’ve taken multimedia design classes in school and being the editor of a yearbook designing and photographing events was my most favorite part of high school.

   I know it’s what in my heart. There is only one thing from keeping me from majoring in it. My current location and mainly the economy. There are other factors holding me back but none worth mentioning for the sake of people’s feelings. My last camera broke after the warranty was up. I was so upset. I was taking a picture and then “Click” all I saw was a puff of smoke and a burning smell. Since then I have had yearbook’s cameras to use and now that I graduated, had to start a job that I absolutely hate (to pay the bills of course), and started college I have had no time to save up for a new camera. I have $330 saved up. It’s a little over half way there.

  It’s eating me alive. I was off work today and I was bored of everything. I could only think of one thing and that was to roam about my beautiful college campus and take photos. That was the only thing on my mind. It’s like it has consumed me. Writing about it helps. I just wish I could hurry up and buy the Canon Rebel T3 camera kit with 2 lenses I want.. I would be the happiest kid in the world. Patience is a virtue and I am certainly being taught it.

As for pursuing it. I’ve taken a smarter route. I am a biomedical sciences student who hopes to become a physician’s assistant who pursues photography on the side in hopes of one day making that my career. My dream of being a National Geographic or LIFE magazine photographer will have to be put on hold except for when I sleep.

For now I guess I just have my Iphone 3gs camera. I do love every bit of it and Instagram. :)




G’night everyone
-E

Sometimes I’m just too tired! I wanted this to be my new years resolution though. I know it’s 7 days too late starting, but hey! Anyone should be able to start a resolution any day. Lately, I’ve been obsessing over Red Panda cub videos :). They make me smile. I’m half way to saving up for my Canon Rebel T3i (Can’t wait!). I’ve been having the time of my life replaying animal crossing and pokemon black 2 on my boyfriend’s 3DS. I’m about to get ready to work. I’m going to enjoy my last week of summer break! :)

     Well, after only having about 2.5 hours of sleep in the last 36+ hours (6 of those hours taking finals, 7 of those hours at work, and the rest studying/human behaviors), I am EXHAUSTED. I am thrilled that they are over. I only have to pick up my English 102 research paper on Thursday.
     I also found out my car is leaking coolant today, so on my off day (tomorrow) I have to try and look to see where it is coming from. I pray to God that it is just a hose. I feel like every time I start to save up money I have to spend it on something.
     Lately, through some recent events and experiences I’ve realized I need to look at things in a more positive way. So, I’m not going to let it get me down. Things always work out in the end. My stress level is always way to high. I need to learn to let things go but not so far as to not caring. It’s finding that balance that is the trouble.
     Well, I’m going to bed. I hope everyone is having a nice end to their day. I leave you with this! Aren’t Savannah Cats so cute?!  Wild and Cuddly!

-E